demoralization and reorganization

it seems like I haven't smiled voluntarily for awhile. That I've been walking with my head down and eyes glued to the floor. Suddenly i feel like people want me to be what I'm not. At least not yet. Want me to be just a regular person and not just playing golf everyday. Want me to be a beer golfer. Its just so confusing hearing so many voices. So many differing opinions. Like going to 5 different coaches and reading books too. I've been feeling so lousy and lost. It's no one's fault but my own. I'm unhappy and I don't know how to make myself feel better but at least I'm trying. The answer will come soon.then it'll be a eureka moment.