hard work part 2

its 6am and i'm still awake. Can't get to sleep because i'm tingling all over with excitement

635am i decide to stop tossing and turning in bed, turn on the lights and change into golfing gear

645am i'm out the door and waiting for a cab (grrr wait till its past 7 to get a cab), i almost give up to go home and crawl into bed. I remember that i'm wearing earrings today and feel confident and sexy

715am i reach the club and order breakfast. I feel proud that my determination to practice hard is coming back, nevermind that i haven't slept. At least i'm out of my pyjamas and besides i've slept about 12 hours each of the past few days i've been moping.

744am i'm done with my yummy thick cut kaya toast and am about to start my day of efficient golf practice

745am it starts to rain. A difference of just one minute decides my schedule. I'll update my blog first. The wind is blowing through the clubhouse and i feel chilly (weird cos i'm always sweating so much here). small rain drops fly with the wind and land on my phone screen. But nothing can stop my determination today.

It is my determination to start on part 2 of hard work. Determination to improve my golf. Determination not to let all the obstacles i faced prevent me from moving forward. Determination not to be afraid.

I finished watching taiwan series 'my queen'. One sentence i really found meaningful is that you can choose how you feel in just one second. Choosing to be optimistic takes just a second, choosing to give up on yourself also takes a second. Why not make the choice that will enrich your life.

Make the choice of loving yourself today. Do something that makes you feel happy. Even if you feel like nothing is going well, that no one appreciates anything you do, love yourself. don't wait for others to show they love you. If you don't love yourself who will??

I know it really isn't easy to find loving emotions when you're in a low place. I've been there. But don't worry, if i can do it, so can you !

Sending you love, wherever you are.