don't think about the score

i don't know whether to thank or scold the person who told me not to think about my golf score. on one hand it made me feel numb to whether i hit a par or a double bogey. it also made me have more time to think about how bad my putting is. on the other hand, it also took away the jitters when i hit the ball.

i suspect that in trying to not think about the score, i totally switched my mind off the game and lost all confidence in my golfing ability. aiish. maybe thats why i played so badly today. however, i can't really say its that bad because i didn't hit any horrible shots with my woods. you know the kind that you just pops up and runs 50metres along the ground?
maybe the problem is just that i forgot to have good foot work and returned to my bad habit of dropping my right hip.

why is the golf swing so challenging if it's meant to follow a natural swing plane. it should be something natural right. then why is my right hip still doing unnatural things ?

i can hardly recall my strokes. is it ok to just forget today's game happened and believe and remember only the good games i've played?

i've also tried a new way of keeping my stats on the golf course. a method of ticking and crossing that also helps to take your mind off the score and just trying to get ticks. yesterday's 'tick-sheet' had more crosses than ticks. but today's one is worse because there are so many many crosses. eek i think seeing the number of crosses further aggravated my lack of confidence

oh well, it is something to learn from.
if i only remember one phrase from my time at adam khoo's course, it's that "there is no such thing as failure, only learning experiences"

i was actually hitting the ball quite well. not hitting it thin but slightly fat instead today. my distance improved but direction was really horrible. maybe i was trying a different golf ball thats why the distance was longer. hmmm

jiayou lim shuyan ! you can do it !

but for now i feel like curling up and going to sleep. the rain outside goes pitter patter and seems to be hypnotising me not to think about my golf and just go sleep.